I would like to apologize to everyone who follows me for my art. I know that a lot of you expected me to produce more and more art and I fully intended to, but I am afraid that is just no longer the case.
Over the last few years, my artistic drive has seen a significant withdrawal, and in recent months it has altogether vanished. With the stress of family bearing down on me, the scars of several(and I mean several) relationships that ended in me being used and cheated on, the stress that my current relationship has placed on me this year alone, and my own personal troubles, I have been able to enjoy drawing less and less as my creative passion became slowly more and more injured. I have finally decided it is time for me to accept that not only do I no longer enjoy drawing, or being creative at all, but I have actually come to the conclusion that I properly hate drawing now. I have been attempting to force myself through what I had felt was an art block for several months, but my efforts have all felt to me more akin to a grueling chore.
The simple truth of this matter is that aside from art no longer giving me any pleasure or happiness, but it now legitimately, and ultimately, deprives me of any form of pleasure or enjoyment when I attempt to produce anything.
To those of you who did their best to support me and my art, I appreciate and thank you for all that you did, and I wish I could prevent it from being in vain. As much as it pains me to admit it, your support was all too little, far, far too late in an artistic career that has been ignored, belittled, and degraded long before your influence.
I am putting down my pen. I will be storing all of my art supplies, and archiving all of my art. I will no longer work on previously unfinished projects, I will no longer submit literary works, and I may no longer post journals. I am done. There is no need for me to continue torturing myself with the anger and rage that I experience when trying to express my creativity, anymore, regardless of whether people enjoy it or not.